So it goes is all I can say... We have come this far, but are we enjoying the ride is the billion dollar question. At the end of 2008 I was excited, this is 2000 and MINE!! Yeah let’s shine... No seriously. My new year’s resolution was for this year to be a big one, for me! I have made some drastic changes in 2000 and great, I have parted with some of my best friends whom I realized where not there through thick and thin. I realized that I am a pillar of support for those around me but that me myself have no pillar..
So came 2000 and mine.. A year in which my aim is to change myself for the better, to focus on the me and to be a better me. I realized that I was to caught up in the lives of others, getting myself down over problems that are not mine and maybe doing so as to not deal with my own problems. You cant fix the world you can't change people but you can be you, a you that can make the world a better place only if you know who you are and where you are going. Well maybe not where you going, because that is an unanswerable question that only time can answer.
Anyway enough babble, the point is that this is 2000 and mine, a year for self inspection and a time that I chosoe to take to focus on myself, sometimes being a little selfish is a good thing. My big change happened with a bang at the beginning of April, parting ways with my boyfriend of 3 years on our anniversary, just to make it entertaining.. That happened on a Tuesday, Wednesday I phoned my cousin in Addo and by that evening my ticket to a new life was booked. I knew that if I was to hang around I would change my mind and reconcile. So on Friday I said my goodbyes and was ready for a holiday.
I have to pause and say that this might have been one of the best things I have done for myself in along time. Five days filled with farm, elephants, lemon orchards good company and fresh new faces. A change indeed is as good as a holiday. It was soul food, seriously I cried when I had to get back onto the plain to the city and the nameless faces that form our everyday lives. Self inspection and an enlightening trip to the fortune teller followed, yes I hate my job, I could have told you that. Seeing that this is all about change lets go all out.
So I packed my bags again and off I went to the valley, but a different one this time. The “Boland” valley, place of wine, place of my home language’s origin, proud to be Afrikaans! (but blogging in Eng for obvious reasons). I instantly fell in love with the acres of grape vines surrounded by the serenity of the beautiful mountains, and don’t forget the famous Paarl mountain. A couple of interviews later, some sight seeing and of course some lovely wine, still jobless but also still very positive I decide to make the big move. I went home and had 4 days to get my life in order and sorted, quit my job and once again say my goodbyes.
My 206, my spaniel in the back and my life in Checkers bags my dad and I take on the long road... Was it long, we drove for 21 hours!! He had to come down for work, perfect for me and flew back on the Friday. We had a lovely time together in between his meetings. On our way to Franschhoek we stopped over at a random wine farm for some tea. Then the most beautiful thing happen, sipping our latte’s soaking up the sun a tourist walks past, stops and presses her nose to one of the roses that surround us. Dad and I smiled, he looked at me and said “Isn't that beautiful, stop and smell the roses”.. This past month has gone by with lightning speed but what I have learnt is this. I look at the valley and the mountains and they make me feel alive. The ever changing weather complimenting the surroundings in so many ways, glistening rain, luminous late afternoon sunlight, cosy drizzling days.. I can most certainly get used to this.
So came 2000 and mine.. A year in which my aim is to change myself for the better, to focus on the me and to be a better me. I realized that I was to caught up in the lives of others, getting myself down over problems that are not mine and maybe doing so as to not deal with my own problems. You cant fix the world you can't change people but you can be you, a you that can make the world a better place only if you know who you are and where you are going. Well maybe not where you going, because that is an unanswerable question that only time can answer.
Anyway enough babble, the point is that this is 2000 and mine, a year for self inspection and a time that I chosoe to take to focus on myself, sometimes being a little selfish is a good thing. My big change happened with a bang at the beginning of April, parting ways with my boyfriend of 3 years on our anniversary, just to make it entertaining.. That happened on a Tuesday, Wednesday I phoned my cousin in Addo and by that evening my ticket to a new life was booked. I knew that if I was to hang around I would change my mind and reconcile. So on Friday I said my goodbyes and was ready for a holiday.
I have to pause and say that this might have been one of the best things I have done for myself in along time. Five days filled with farm, elephants, lemon orchards good company and fresh new faces. A change indeed is as good as a holiday. It was soul food, seriously I cried when I had to get back onto the plain to the city and the nameless faces that form our everyday lives. Self inspection and an enlightening trip to the fortune teller followed, yes I hate my job, I could have told you that. Seeing that this is all about change lets go all out.
So I packed my bags again and off I went to the valley, but a different one this time. The “Boland” valley, place of wine, place of my home language’s origin, proud to be Afrikaans! (but blogging in Eng for obvious reasons). I instantly fell in love with the acres of grape vines surrounded by the serenity of the beautiful mountains, and don’t forget the famous Paarl mountain. A couple of interviews later, some sight seeing and of course some lovely wine, still jobless but also still very positive I decide to make the big move. I went home and had 4 days to get my life in order and sorted, quit my job and once again say my goodbyes.
My 206, my spaniel in the back and my life in Checkers bags my dad and I take on the long road... Was it long, we drove for 21 hours!! He had to come down for work, perfect for me and flew back on the Friday. We had a lovely time together in between his meetings. On our way to Franschhoek we stopped over at a random wine farm for some tea. Then the most beautiful thing happen, sipping our latte’s soaking up the sun a tourist walks past, stops and presses her nose to one of the roses that surround us. Dad and I smiled, he looked at me and said “Isn't that beautiful, stop and smell the roses”.. This past month has gone by with lightning speed but what I have learnt is this. I look at the valley and the mountains and they make me feel alive. The ever changing weather complimenting the surroundings in so many ways, glistening rain, luminous late afternoon sunlight, cosy drizzling days.. I can most certainly get used to this.
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location location location...
Makes all the diffrence!!!
Vriendin, nou verstaan jy waarna my hart so hunker..ek verlang die Kaap!!
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